My tests results came back and everything looks normal. They tested my prolactin, testosterone, HCG and thyroid levels. The prolactin showed that I am lactating and the HCG had dropped from the 1000+ down to 35. So if all is ok then why am I only getting teaspoons when I pump? My lactation consultant is still working on what might be going on and how to help me.

Lorelai is eating more at each feeding, almost 4 oz. each time, so she is napping longer between feedings. This makes me feel like I have a bit more time to get things done. I'm still pumping when she feeds but because everything is a bit more spaced out it does not seem as overwhelming. I'm just not sure how long to keep doing this before it kicks in or I throw in the towel. A friend of mine told me it could take 4-5 weeks, I can hold out that long, but I don't feel like I have the energy to keep going after that.

I know it will be ok if she is a bottle fed baby. I was bottle fed, my hubby was bottle fed, in fact almost everyone I know my age was bottle fed. I just really, really wanted to breastfeed her so I'm feeling a little down on myself right now. It is the mental vs. the emotional.

I hope the lactation consultant has some new ideas for me tomorrow.